I find myself crying to Olivia Rodrigo. Sad, slow songs are my favorite right now. Girl In Red music is soothing but those words don´t explain how i feel. I miss her. She isn't mine to miss. What do i do if I think i love a girl who isnt mine to love? I have no right at all to want her because she is someone else's.

All i want is for my arms to be the ones she feels safe in. I want to hold her and make her feel safe, warm, ect. When i see her all i can think of is what it would be like to hold her, watch christmas movies, with christmas candles, cookies, cider, ect. She makes me happy. I really care for her.

I think i love her.
I miss her.
I want to hear my name on her lips.
I think of romance,
and i think of her.
i wanna kiss her.
I want to see her.
I want to hold her in my arms.
Watch a film with the lights off.
I wanna kiss in a park,
on a sunday afternoon.
I wanna stay out until its dark,
just because we want to.
Hold hands and never part,
like real lovers do.
I dont want her for her body, looks, or kisses.
I want HER.
I would walk 100 miles in the snow for her.
Show her how beautiful life could be for us.
But she isnt mine.

I want to be
her middle of the night call,
her friday plans,
her weekend plans,
her constant train of thought,
her morning text,
her annoyingly high pitched singing buddy,
her fall asleep on facetime,
her cuddle buddy,
her best friend,
the person who is constantly there to protect her.
I want this to be our Two Queens In A King Sized Bed story