I've been thinking alot lately after the car incident and i wanna know WHY

Why did amya and glitch befriend me?
Why did Mark fall in love with me?
Why am i still alive?
Why do i have friends?
Why do i live like this?
Why do i punch holes in my walls to release pain if its only causing more?
Why did i get in a car accident?
Why did i ever have to wake up?
Why is my siblings going through this cause of me?
Why is everything caused by me?
Why do people hate me?
Why do i have anger issues?
Why do i have anxiety?
Why do i have separation anxiety disorder?
Why do I get abused?
Why do i get heart broken?
Why do i sit in a dark room and cry?
Why was i ra. ped?
WHY Do These Things Happen To Me?