If anyone needs a written description of teenage depre. ssion, I wrote this about a month ago, about 2 days before practically attempting. No one loves you. No one has ever loved you. They all just pity you. They'll leave you like mom did. Don't you get it? No one will ever believe you. No one will ever trust you. Ian will never love you. You have put yourself in the worst position you can and we both know you did it on purpose. Because you deserve it. You don't deserve happiness. You don't deserve a break. You only deserve de. ath. You don't deserve to live, you never did. You were a mis. take from the beginning. Don't you see it? No one wants you. They're disg. usted by you. You deserved to be born in the wrong body, you deserve that disc. omfort you tai. nted disg. usting wit. ch. No man, woman, no one will ever love you, you will die alone. Melanie never loved you. Johnathan never loved you. Amanda never loved you. No one ever loved you. Not even yourself. You will always des. pise yourself. You will always be disg. usting in your own eyes and everyone else's. You'll never be a real man. No one will ever see you as a real man. They'll just see a brain. washed dise. ased little girl who thought Testosterone shots would fix her problems. You're just muti. lating you beautiful body other girls would k. ill for, but you'd rather never be born than to be born a girl again. You will always ha. te your body and everyone will look down on you for it. You're men. tally il. l and deserve to be in an ins. ane asy. lum because we both know that's where you belong. You've probably faked every emotion you've ever "felt". How are you supposed to know if you feel emotions if all you wear is a mask in front of everyone. They see you as we. ak and path. etic. You are we. ak and path. etic. You are the problem. You will bring nothing but gri. ef and stress to anyone unlucky enough to know you. So just go fix it.