But my mother's expression was what devastated me: a quiet, blank look that said she had lost everything. i felt the same way, and it seemed as if everybody were now coming up, like gawkers at the scene of an accident, to see what parts were actually missing. when we got on the bus to go home, my father was humming the busy-bee tune and my mother kept silent. i kept thinking she wanted to wait until we got home before shouting at me. but when my father unlocked the door to our apartment, my mother walked in and went to the back, into the bedroom. no accusations. no blame. and in a way, i felt disappointed. i had been waiting for her to start shouting, so i could shout back and cry and blame her for all my misery. based on the context of this excerpt, which of the following is most likely the reason jing-mei wanted her mother to shout at her?