God. If you are listening to me..Why? I never had it easy. You never let me have it easy. I was always in fear. I never had one day of just nothing but happiness. You seem to be flawed urself. Because if you were so dam n perfect you would see my suffering and you would know to stop throwing $ hit at me all the time. You would know to stop to make all those people stop klLLing themselves. But you didn't stop. and now those people are dead. You are not god I want to worship if all you give me is fake hopes and endless disappointment and pain.