I really messed up recently, I lost the girl I love because I did some things to get me expelled, and she got in trouble with it too. there's no way for us to see each other or talk. I really love her, but I'm not sure if her feelings for me are still the same. I am able to go back to school next year, but she and her family might be moving so when I do go back the girl I love will be gone. I wish I wasn't so stu. pid, then I'd be able to see her and hold her, and tell her I love her. I'd be able to be there for her when she needs it, but because of how du. mb I am I can't. I sit in my room every night crying and making songs for/about her. The day everything went down I saw her crying as she walked past a class I was in, I ran out and tried talking to her but I was too devastated to say anything, I couldn't even hug her. I miss her so much it hurts. I know hearts cant physically break but it feels like mine has.