I REALLY REALLY REALLY hate myself a way I feel about myself but it's just a feeling that no one cares it's very hard to explain my feelings to people cause they really don't understand that i'm sad is taking over I wish I had someone that understands me even my parents don't understand and I don't know if i can handle this anymore but i'm still afraid of death just a lot of piles and things to think about i just wish i were normaal and pretty like other girls