Lord darlington wasn't a bad man. he wasn't a bad man at all. and at least he had the privilege of being able to say at the end of his life that he made his own mistakes. his lordship was a courageous man. he chose a certain path in life, it proved to be a misguided one, but there, he chose it, he can say that at least. as for myself, i cannot even claim that. you see, i trusted. i trusted his lordship's wisdom. all those years i served him, i trusted i was doing something worthwhile. i can't even say i made my own mistakes. really -- one has to ask oneself -- what dignity is there in that