Read the excerpt from twelve years a slave chapter 9.

oh! how heavily the weight of slavery pressed upon me then. i must toil day after day, endure abuse and taunts and scoffs, sleep on the hard ground, live on the coarsest fare, and not only this, but live the slave of a blood-seeking wretch, of whom i must stand henceforth in continued fear and dread. why had i not died in my young years--before god had given me children to love and live for? what unhappiness and suffering and sorrow it would have prevented. i sighed for liberty; but the bondman's chain was round me, and could not be shaken off. i could only gaze wistfully towards the north, and think of the thousands of miles that stretched between me and the soil of freedom, over which a black freeman may not pass.

examine the bolded portions of the passage that describe the emotions created in northup as a result of this conflict of man versus society (northup versus slavery). from these words and phrases, can you conclude how slavery makes northup feel?